unstuck

with my last foot out of the past
i truely begin to walk, no run to my future
its blank and i have the brush
i will paint as i please with no restrictions
let my body sway in the wind
and watch in awe as my hand paints the future i always wanted
the past is past and what will last will last
enjoy the low even with it slow it will help you grow
through each pain there is something to gain
sad through all the while in the end you find your smile
no matter where on the path, its not the end so remember to laugh
there is nothing above, that feeling of love.

Here i am again. YIKES. lol. Words describe life and emotions make you feel life. When things become emotionless, they become dead. Every year i end up in a new place, but wouldnt change it ever, I grow, have begun to learn from mistakes instead of keep living them and that was my biggest problem in life. NO ONE will ever change until they want to. Nothing in life comes easy, and never will, if its too easy, then its not true. I have made alot of mistakes in my life, but i cant change the past, and i am not going to beat myself up about them, i will only learn, not dwell. Sometimes in life you gotta go wrong so you know how to NOT do things so you can do the right, and thats where i am in my life after a crazy weird amazing laughable sad rock bottom highest highs lost found last four years. I mean in a year i went from being a husband and future father to a sad lonely miserable in my own skin boy, to a confident secure happy man. Just proves that in time anything is possible. "every passing moment is another chance to turn it all around" and i have taken the bad, appreciate it for what it is, learning tools, and have moved on. Through any wrong or bad you do, the people who truely got to know you or know you inside, are the ones that will be by your side when the dust and drama settles. No matter how small that number will be, at least you know they are the honest few for you. I came from a place where i was miserable, and wanted love but i never completely knew how to give it. And misery loves company. But through it all i have found my smile, i have found my happiness, and have completely found my love. The one thing i eventually came to hate i have come to LOVE. Life. Its the greatest ride you can ever be one, because even after the worst lows there are even bigger highs to go on. And it completely is the journey of life that makes it all exciting. I love you life. I will focus on you, so keep bringing it at me. "its easy to be a liar and a hypocrit, and hard to be honest and true, but easiest of all to never be in a position where you are to be a liar or a hypocrit" Focus, Focus Focus.

love, you

I know i've done alot wrong
and even as many times as i sing this song
It'll will never change the past
but i wanna change to make us last
I hope we persevere
cause these times are so severe
just wish i had to you here
and make you cry not one more tear.

will i ever take your breath away
will you ever as me to stay
has it already been out last day
or will we look down the way
and hear the "i do's" that we say
cause i do
love, you.

And when it's all said and done
i hope that I'm the one
that helps you feel the sunshine from the sun
and be the last one that call you hon
the one to brush your hair
the one to show you how much i care
say i love you til our last night
until we both see the big bright light.